I’m back! Let’s do this. Accountability and stuff!
A soup inspired by Lindsey. I went over after work to help chop onions for a delicious soup that involved equal parts butternut squash, onion, apple, and potato. After a trip to the big box stores nearby, she packed me a hunk of delicious whole wheat sunflower seed bread that I ate for breakfast plus butternut squash from Sean.
The soup’s parts are as follows: one butternut squash, peeled and cubed, four medium red potatoes treated the same way, all sweated in Earth Balance in my enameled cast iron pot. Water until just covered, a glug of orange juice for brightness, a large bunch of frozen mushroom stems, tiniest palm measurement of curry powder and sage, bay leaf, salt, hope, boil, boil, simmer. Strain stems, bay leaf, hope into not a compost pile because I don’t do that here. :/ Immersion blender, taste another glug of orange juice, salt, blend, taste, salt, blend, taste.
Velvety and didn’t hurt with fresh grated parm and cracked pepper. Dax cat licked the bowl when I was done. Eat shit, winter.
On the way back from the Whirlaway last night, I complained I had no food in my house.
This, apparently, is what no food looks like. I also didn’t pay for anything. Farmers market-er friend’s excess peppers and potatoes. Tomatoes from a coworker. Basil from my garden. Cracked two eggs on it, crumbled some goat cheese, salted and peppered, called it breakfast.
5, 6, 7.
Hey pals.
Weekend was tough re: making good food choices but sweet by most all other accounts. I didn’t eat anything substantial on April 30/day 5 until late (9 pm!) when I had a “Love It” size of ice cream from Cold Stone. Oops. Earlier, I had two mangoes and a bowl of the microwave Annie’s mac and cheese. Day 5 bled into Day 6 because we went to Pick Me Up pretty late where I had a veggie grinder covered in thick, delicious melted provolone. And fries. Duh.
Day 6 was an Italian sandwich from Potbelly’s in the original size and most of a Boylan’s Black Cherry soda. A slice of goat cheese and pesto pizza from Whole Foods and half a chocolate and espresso bean woopie pie, a brownie square, and a few peanuts for a late snack.
Day 7, today, was horrendous but of the same sort. Two bananas. One with a big spoonful of peanut butter. Two bowls of the microwave mac and cheese. It’s not over yet! Dinner will be a piece of blackened salmon with spinach cooked with garlic and ginger and a mango for dessert. I pregamed that shit and ate a wrap with CSA greens and red pepper and feta cheese. So hungry! I hope I wake up early enough to have breakfast. Crucial.
I am, indeed, thinking more about what I put into my guts by keeping track of it. A part of me sees it as a competition with myself to maintain (start, more like) good habits. I don’t think I can do that without first documenting what an idiot I am.
4.
Sup bros.
Today was bad. I started out with missing clothes! So I didn’t pack a snack or lunch. I got trapped in an elevator, and getting trapped, as it turns out, is a thing I dislike, much like missing clothes! Had no idea. I do know that I deal with negativity by anger-raging and eating my feelings.
Let’s just say that today was a constant consumption of pizza and 1.5 hot dogs and .5 cheeseburgers and so many perfect french fries. And two peanut butter cups. Love you hard, America. I feel like poop. There’s obvious correlation between what I eat and how I’m feeling. It’s a lousy habit to eat when I feel bad or eat when I feel good or or eat when I’m bored or eat when I don’t feel anything at all. Perpetuating lousiness! I should eat better, duh.
I did, however, buy a bag of clementines and 10 mangoes for $4. I’m full, so no proper homemade dinner tonight. Tomorrow will be better. I have all of this ripe fruit and lovely looking CSA vegetables.
3.
A lot of pizza. Pepperoni and pineapple. A quarter of a giant chocolate chip cookie. A third of a Clif bar. Three peanut butter cups. A lot of water.
End of 1, 2, and start of 3.
Two nights ago, I had two wraps with an over easy egg on each, greens from last week’s CSA, pan-seared zucchini and mushrooms. And roasted garlic cheese. And ranch dressing. Oops. I’m pretty proud of the following day but I didn’t have much of an appetite!
- Eros Organic Greek Yogurt. Strawberry! Getting really into fruit yogurts lately, though I sometimes find them too sweet. Like this one.
- Whole wheat pasta with roasted red potatoes, mushrooms, and zucchini. A splash of red wine vinegar. Lunch. This filled me up for a long time.
- Snacked on a handful of almonds and cashews all day. A few chocolate-covered espresso beans.
- A grapefruit with probably a teaspoon of sugar. A coconut water. Shit tastes like my childhood.
- Dinner was banh mi and basil seed juice.
I could’ve up’ed it and eaten more greens and fruits, but I think this was pretty fair given how busy I’ve been and a lack of resources. I’m hoping more CSA splits happen and that my garden gets up and running soon. Helping Old Sean till his yard soon so maybe I will try to grow something in the ground as well as pots. Hope the rats don’t get at it. Today’s started poorly already. Breakfast was two squares of cold pepperoni pizza from the work fridge. I also didn’t pack any snacks or fruit or lunch and I have band practice. Oh boy.
trying my best to take pictures of things with not my telephone. not a thing i am good at, clearly. there aren’t enough buttons and dials on this stupid camera, i am so confused.
Trying to be more accountable of what I put into my body!
Sorry if this is boring, but this was a way I thought of to keep myself motivated to make good choices. At least this tumblr has fewer followers than my personal personal one.
• Lately, less booze, which is the biggest thing. A+ and pretty easy, I think, given that Dudepal is straight edge and I’ve been too busy and too broke to buy anything let alone drinks never mind that I bought a whiskey and coke yesterday, and some dresses, hey, someone I know, get married, I have really lovely unworn gray pumps and dresses!
• Had a handful each of raw almonds and unsalted, roasted cashews. A square of the secret-Callebaut (i.e. TJ’s) 72% chocolate. For breakfast. What a shitty start because that meant no work snacks all day! And I had yogurt (Skyr!) in the work fridge I forgot about.
• Half of a mandarin orange from my manager.
• 1.5 servings of sauteed curied spinach and paneer cheese and most of a big piece of naan. I’m trying to spend less dough. For lunch, convenience foods like these pouch meals are cheap and delicious but the portions are dumb and way too much. I split some of it with a coworker but still ate too much. And it’s packed with sodium. I love salt, but I don’t like thinking about how much I actually consume in a day.
• Peanut and chocolate Larabar. Getting kind of sick of Clif bars for my mid-day “boost” so I’m switching it up with Larabars and Odwalla bars. Odwalla is owned by Coca-cola, doods. I didn’t want to look up other things because :/
• Two single serving bags of Hello Panda strawberry snacks. And a big packet of Pocky sticks. Fuck. Shit falls apart at the end of the day when I end up working until 8 and don’t pack suitable snacks or a whole other meal.
• A square of cold pepperoni pizza that was in the work fridge. :(
I just shoved a TJ’s dark chocolate peanut butter cup into my mouth before filling up Dax’s food bowl. I will have a late dinner of a pan seared green bean, zucchini, and mushroom wrap with some CSA greens and roasted garlic cheese. First, a shower. And cleaning my cast iron. Thinking about buying another piece of cast iron. I love it! And a grill! I miss having one.
Seared some brussels sprouts in olive oil and bacon fat, roasted a chicken a la Pepin, and a salad of marinated strawberries, goat cheese, and baby spinach.
Almost a year ago, a spray bottle of sunscreen busted in my bag and expelled sunscreen all over my stuff including my brand new telephone. The liquid’s migrated to the lens on the camera portion of my phone so everything looks extra lame. Sorry bros. Maybe time to use a real camera.
